I am a writer.
My mind cannot help but create. It is constantly searching for something new to express. It never sleeps.
Even in my dreams, I use my God given talents to be the most creative and unique person I can be. It gives me purpose. It gives me strength. But most of all it defines me.
There are so many qualities about ourselves we choose to identify with. Whether it be your luscious hair, your piercing eyes, your sensible smile, your outlandish personality, or like me, your ability to be innovative and free.
No matter what it is, we all have that something we can use to claim, “This is who I am!” No one can change that.
The characteristics I choose to own and declare to the world, are the ones I am most proud of and love the most.
Yes, you should choose to accept all of yourself, including your flaws. However, I believe your confidence comes from the talents you are most passionate about and the ones you feel most connected to. They give you the power to control what makes you happy and what makes you the best YOU, you can possibly be. They just make us who we are. It is as simple as that.
I would like to claim…
My creative instincts. My kind & sensitive nature. My love for human interaction. My quirky & zany personality. My infectious laughter. My passion for giving to those in need. My knack for listening to others. My yearn to try new things & zest for life. My strength in overcoming hardships. My devotion to God. My faith in my friends & family.
My will to know what I want out of life. My ability to stay true to who I am. …all because these encompass me and provide me with the most confidence.
I have my faults just like everyone else, and they define me just as much.
I would like to claim…
My indecisive nature. My inability to trust some & my ability to overly trust others. My prideful stature. My narrow minded state of being. My lust for perfection. My controlling personality. My lack of self-confidence & self-worth. My strive to be someone I am not. My overly jealous state of mind. My need to change who I am. My mental disabilities. My diminishing thoughts about myself. …all because they weight me down, preventing me from expressing myself.
By declaring these flaws and making them known, gives them less power over me. It allows me to set myself free from these barriers, making myself more vulnerable.
I get to shed them from my skin and be the girl God intended me to be. My faults define me, but only because they make me stronger and give me the ability to over come these sinful, harmful thoughts.
The longer I dwell on them… …the more they control my state of mind, making me be someone I am not. The more they possess my fine qualities, letting others see the worst in me. …the more they have the ability to drain my spirits and my faith in God, allowing more sin to be present in my life. …the more they prevent me from being myself to those who care most about me. …the more they make me feel disengaged from the world, showing others my heart’s open wounds.
Loving yourself is a hard thing to do. From your flaws to your insecurities, we are simply burdened with the constant reminder “You are never enough.” Woman are growing up in a world where they have to fit in certain box. When we do not fit the box, the reminder kicks in that we are just “not enough.”
My point in this piece is to provide others with the comfort that we all have flaws; ones that are hard to control. Despite those flaws, you are more than them because they do not control you. Embrace your personality and your flaws because that is what makes you special. That is what helps define you and give you the tenacity to never give up on yourself.
Believe in the beauty of “I am always enough.” You are what you want to be, not what your insecurities tell you to be. Be the you God wants and made you to be, because there is no one more special, more unique than who you are. Have the courage to say, “This is me!”